I Have a Dream

I have a dream, a vision for my life and for the world. 

Like me, this dream has grown, evolved, and shape-shifted. But this dream was planted long before I ever took my first breath... long before I knew I was called forth to express this vision. 

As a young girl, my dream was to learn and share art. I was put on stage at the age of two, when performance art became my gift. I loved to to sing and dance and entertain, bringing people joy and a connection to spirit through expressive movement. I taught myself how to read by age three. A channel of Saraswati energies, I was rarely found without my nose in a book and a song to share with the world. Creative expression and intellect were where my dream manifested. 

During my childhood, my vision rested in connecting with the earth, with the plants and the animals that inhabit the natural world. I developed a strong friendship with the land growing up an only child deep in the redwood forests of Northern California. I spent hours in my treehouse conversing with the spirits of nature. My dream was to be free to be me, and nature seemed to be one of the only places I felt safe enough to open up. 

My teenage years were spent dreaming of travel, of seeing other lands. I dreamt of starkly different landscapes, of experiencing new languages and cultures, of connecting deeply with people. I also yearned to explore the mysteries of both the inner and the outer worlds in which we reside. At age 13, I awoke to the great mystery, noticing I had the power to manifest what I wanted by performing rituals connected to divine energies. I felt powerful and capable... until the world told me it wasn't okay to do what I was doing, that it wasn't cool to honor the earth and the gods of our ancient ancestors. So I clung to what did make me feel magical. Dance, music, and art continued to be tools I used for connection and self expression. 

In my young adult life, I awakened to the many ills of the world: the gross inequities, the widespread injustice, the entrenched delusions. Until that point I had lived a fairly sheltered existence, believing that everyone was free to practice whatever spiritual path they wanted, that everyone recycled and cared for the earth, that everyone volunteered their time to help others in need. My dream was to make a difference, to transform the world, to take part in the massive change needed to turn the ship around. I felt I needed to shake people awake. I struggled, I pushed, I prodded. It didn't work. 

More recently, my dream has begun to morph back towards the visions of my youth: of creative expression in a safe and accepting environment, of developing a strong bond with the earth and all its creatures, of manifesting what my heart yearns for, of learning and growing and sharing the incredible lessons I've been blessed to have gained in my short time in this body. 

I've realized that in order for others to become empathetically connected to changing the trajectory of our species, we must all first wake up to our own divinity. We must understand how absolutely indivisible we are from the earth and from each other. To take part in the great turning I once struggled to enact, we require an awakening to the truth of our innate wisdom and infinite potential. 

We teach others respect by first respecting ourselves. We learn to help and care for others and teach others the same by first caring for ourselves. We learn to spread realness and authenticity with the external world by first becoming real and authentic with ourselves. And as Ghandi proscribed during his nonviolent revolution in India, we learn to be the change in the world by being the change we seek ourselves. The revolution starts within.

My dream is still to see a world with the freedom of full creative expression, with the ability to profoundly connect to the land and all of its beautiful inhabitants, with the liberty to keep our hearts and minds open to constant learning. But now my vision is that I may myself first live a life that is aligned with the future I dream of. My dream is to walk my talk. I dream that the lives I touch in the heart driven service work I perform will feel my commitment and devotion to such an existence... A life channeled freely, radiantly, and abundantly. 

There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and there is only one of you in all time. This expression is unique, and if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium; and be lost. The world will not have it.

It is not your business to determine how good it is, not how it compares with other expression. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open.
— Martha Graham

What is your dream? How has that dream evolved? How is your dream guiding your day-to-day life? How are you being your dream?