I spent many years trying to conform to a semblance of someone I thought people would like. A people pleaser, I was an extreme social chameleon: blending in to any situation in order to be accepted and liked by all.
I wanted to be seen as the laid back chill girl. My motto was "All good. No worries." But underneath, I was masking a whole lotta hurt.
I realize now this habit reflected my low self esteem and diminished sense of worth. I was completely reliant on what others thought of me to make me feel valued. The image of the "go with the flow" kind of personality was one of me avoiding confrontation, of not rocking the boat. And in the end, I lost myself completely in the game of shape shifting.
Under who I thought I needed to be, who was I actually?
It took me years to begin to chip away at the façade I had originally constructed in an act of self preservation. As I began to un-learn all the programmed tendencies of a childhood rife with social ostracism, my true self began to shine from within. I slowly started to remember the whole unique being that was beneath.
If I was to start standing in my truth and my power, I'd have to abandon the desire to be friends with everyone. I realized the gift I was here to share was very likely to shake things up a bit. And I soon understood that this was much more important to me than being liked. For really when it came down to it, I was doing the world an injustice by not being true to myself.
So many of us live our lives in an effort to please others, without any concern if our lives really please us. Hell... it's our life, not theirs! It's not our duty to please. It is our duty to be wholly and completely authentic. It's not our responsibility to be friends with everyone. It's our responsibility to be true to ourselves and take action on creating the greatest life we can imagine for ourselves and for the rest of the planet.
In the span of history, those who have made the most positive impact, those who have changed the trajectory of society for the better, have been the outcasts, the rebels, the heretics. They were the people who weren't afraid of unleashing their wild souls. They were individual people like you or I, who, like the moon, in their brilliance, created waves.