I need more education.
If only I had more money.
There's not enough time.
I'm just not ready.
Sound familiar? My inner critic loves hurling these excuses at me on the regular.
I think of the time when I was invited to start teaching yoga, right after my first 200-hour teacher training. "Oh hell no! I'm definitely not ready." Or the time when I kept feeling called to travel to South America, but I was holding onto a less than perfect life in Hawaii. "No, no... I can't possibly go now." Or how about the toxic relationship I delayed ending for fear of losing intimacy in my life. "I'll just see how it goes."
It seems we are always looking for that special moment... The "right time" to start (or quit, or let go, or commit).
But I'm going to let you in on a little secret.
That moment you're seeking... IT DOES NOT EXIST. Period.
The belief of "not enough" or "not ready yet" comes from a mindset of scarcity. It's a belief in lack... that there isn't enough knowledge/money/time/etc. to go around.
This cannot be furthest from the truth.
Our beliefs are the roots in our tree of life. We each have a set of beliefs about the world that largely determine how our life experience unfolds. By continuing to uphold a belief in scarcity, by continuing to believe the "right time" will magically appear, we will NEVER have enough and that time will NEVER arrive.
As radical 20th century philosopher Terence McKenna said, you must fully commit in order for the support to arrive. In other words, jump and the net will appear (or else you will grow wings on the way down).
Nature is asking you to just do it already. Don't worry about not being smart enough, rich enough, prolific enough. Just go ahead and jump. BUT—and this is a big but—you must jump with both feet in. Nature knows when you're half assing a commitment, and if it senses that, it will not conspire in your full favor. You must leap with your full heart invested.
And this takes practice... the whole hearted dive. So, practice with smaller steps at first. Make little commitments to yourself (and thus to nature) that you feel confident you can make in full faith. And once you begin to see that indeed, that feather bed does exist in the dark abyss you've leapt into, the commitments can get loftier.
This practice cultivates a mindset of abundance. It builds a sense of worthiness, a paradigm of bounty, a foundation to thrive. This mentality brings a sense of ease, and flow, and satisfaction with life. There's a knowing that the perfect opportunities and circumstances will unfold for you. Practicing this also helps to receive some of the anxiety and pressure associated with achieving perfection and failure.
Like McKenna says, this commitment... it's pure magic. And let's be honest, who doesn't want more magic in their lives?
Do you get caught up in your own story of "not enough"? How are you continuing to play small? Where do you need to "hurl into the abyss," making a full hearted and courageous commitment to your life?